I have some news… I quit. I am no longer a “Working Mama.” Well sort of, I will continue taking pictures of little sweetie pie kids, but I will no longer be teaching them.
This was one of the most difficult decisions I have ever made. Since the day my child was born I knew I wanted to take care of her. Not just for an hour in the morning and a couple hours at night. I knew I wanted to try to do everything on my own. The way that I wanted to do it. BUT I also love to teach and it is nice to have two incomes, it makes me feel safe. But, between us, I cried a lot this year. I thought it would get easier but it did not. Wimp? Yep and I don’t care who knows it.
Well, God had other plans for me this year. He needed me to go to work for my family. I have to admit there were times that this was hard for me to swallow. The day I dropped Bean off at my Mom’s house for the first time. ( She had never spent more than 2 hours away from me.) Or the time when my Mom became ill and I had to scramble to find people to watch my baby for me. (Again, family stepped in and helped me.)
Through the times that were hard on my “Mama heart” there were also many blessings. I had an awesome group of third graders and an equally as awesome group of co-workers. These ladies made me laugh when I didn’t want to, and held me up when I needed them to. What a blessing this year has been to me.
I have learned that God listens and He answers prayers. He has answered mine. In a week I will be a stay at home Mama to the most wonderful, crazy, beautiful, sassy little girl on Earth. ( I know, you are thinking, “No, my baby is better than yours.” That’s okay, you can think that, you are a Mama too! ) I will be away from her for a few hours a week for photography but hey, that doesn’t feel like work to me.
Thank you for listening Lord and for providing a way for me to be able to be home with my family. I am truly humbled and amazed.